Inner Alchemy: A Journey Back to Authenticity
When I speak of inner alchemy, I do not speak from books or theories. I speak from my own fire. This path was not born as a concept but out of my wounds, my silences, my cries, and the long nights when I thought I had lost my way.
Alchemy, for me, is not about turning lead into gold in the physical sense. It is about transmuting the heaviness of the soul into light. It is about dying to what is false, over and over again, until what remains is only truth.
The Spiral of Transformation
Ancient traditions remind us that transformation is not linear — it does not go from point A to point B in a straight line. Instead, it follows the rhythm of the feminine: the spiral. Like the womb, the moon, and the seasons, we circle back again and again, each time deeper, each time truer.
I have lived this spiral intimately. At 45, I do not have the life that the world told me I should have — no partner, no conventional abundance, no body that fits the norms. And yet, what I gained cannot be taken away:
A profound peace inside.
A freedom from external expectations.
A direct connection to the Divine.
A sense of wholeness and gratitude.
This is the gift of alchemy: to lose what was never truly ours, and to reclaim what has always been within.
The Four Phases of Inner Alchemy
On my path, I discovered that inner alchemy moves through four great phases, each one an initiation of its own :
Nigredo — The Descent: When everything that is false begins to crack. When illusions, identities, and old patterns dissolve, leaving us face-to-face with the fertile chaos of the void.
Albedo — The Healing: The waters of forgiveness, purification, and tenderness. It is the moment when the heart reopens and we remember that our light was never lost.
Citrinitas — The Incarnation: The clarity of the inner sun. Here, wisdom is no longer abstract but embodied. The lessons of the past become living guidance.
Rubedo — The Sacred Union: The ultimate integration of polarities — feminine and masculine, shadow and light, matter and spirit. Here, sovereignty is not an idea, but a lived vibration.
Each time I walk these phases, I meet myself again in a new way. Sometimes Nigredo returns after Rubedo, sometimes Albedo appears in the middle of chaos. It is not a hierarchy. It is a living spiral, intelligent and sacred.
Inner Alchemy in Daily Life
Alchemy is not something we practice once in ceremony and then forget. It is an art of living.
When I honor my body’s rhythms instead of forcing productivity, I am practicing alchemy.
When I choose forgiveness instead of resentment, I am practicing alchemy.
When I dare to embody my truth even if it does not fit the mold, I am practicing alchemy.
Inner alchemy is a path of sovereignty. It does not ask us to become perfect. It asks us to become real.
A Return, Not a Quest
In the end, alchemy is not about “becoming someone.” It is about remembering. It is the return to the authentic, wise, and free nature that was always there beneath the layers .
No teacher, no guide, no method can do this work for us. What we can receive are keys, transmissions, and mirrors. But the alchemy itself happens in the intimate space between us and our own soul.
This is why I created Alchimie Féminine: not to give women ready-made answers, but to awaken their own. Because each woman is already her own medicine.